I really feel SO caught, however I actually wish to begin over. I’m not even positive what meaning but, or what it appears like. Every thing appears like a contradiction – ideas, phrases, emotions. 🤦♀️
Anytime I get a second of readability outdoors the fog of cognitive impairment I in any other case reside in, I sit down and write. The following time I come again to it, it feels all unsuitable. (or complicated)
It’s uncommon I can truly share one thing I really feel positive about, which is why I’ve been tremendous quiet on Fb and Instagram these days. My mind is simply NOT working proper 😏 and it’s SO irritating.
However that’s what has been on my thoughts most these days: beginning over. With my food plan, work & enterprise, my well being & restoration, bodily exercise (train), social circles, my house areas – all of it.
I really feel like my life has been on maintain since I received sick. 🙁
That’s not totally true although. One other contradiction 👀 … as a result of I’ve made a whole lot of modifications and enhancements during the last couple of years. However I’m undoubtedly prepared for (extra) change, BIG change even.
I do know this looks as if horrible timing because it’s a US vacation week. Everyone seems to be busy touring, having fun with Thanksgiving, purchasing, and so forth.
My woman good friend right here that I’ve recognized since we have been 19 invited me over for Thanksgiving to affix her household and another buddies for a meal. I’m very a lot trying ahead to that. 😊❣️
I miss social time and sharing meals after being home-bound a lot the final two years. And gosh 😳 it’s laborious to imagine it’s been two full years now that I’ve been so unwell!
I’m consuming low carb nonetheless, however haven’t actually been consuming that a lot – and my weight is holding regular. That’s one thing I’d prefer to begin over too: sharing my each day meals diaries. I haven’t been doing that for awhile as a result of I’m in additional of a “restoration consuming” section (together with a brief stretch of consuming carbs once more as a check) and I determine that most likely gained’t curiosity many individuals. However then, possibly I’m unsuitable – and I do know for positive it can assist me to speak issues out, and likewise to trace any modifications or enhancements.
Anyway, I determine I’ll eat no matter appeals to me for the one single Thanksgiving meal, given not many meals enchantment to me in any respect these days, after which “begin over” (get again into dietary ketosis) right away after that. I’ll not need something aside from just a few bites of plain meals anyway, so I’m simply going to play it by ear. 🤷♀️
I’m having a tough time consuming meat most days these days. That began once I had covid once more in August. It’s the odor – I lose my urge for food simply on the odor of meat. That’s irritating! The one exception is sausage and eggs. My daughter makes that about as soon as per week, and sufficient to make two meals for me, in order that works.
I’ve all the time executed very well on an elimination food plan, particularly “simply meat” as a base start line. I did that earlier than with nice outcomes consuming simply plain meats – then including in avocado & macadamia butter subsequent. I used to be planning to “begin over” with that, however avocado is a excessive histamine meals and my present aversion to meat has me stalling. 😉
In the event you’re , right here’s a great instance from once I was doing that:
One other type of elimination food plan that’s labored nicely for me, and anybody who’s ever tried it, is 3IMAX – which stands for 3 Substances Max. It’s only a “easy consuming” methodology that helps you remove culprits, enhance well being points and/or drop extra pounds extra rapidly. And it’s much more versatile!
I preserve getting sidetracked. 🙃
I haven’t been on-line a lot the previous couple of weeks, however these three issues that crossed my display held my consideration for an extended second, and I saved them to come back again to. Two quotes/posts and a photograph from my Fb recollections this week – an image taken earlier than I received sick:
“When all else appears to fail, Lynn, be reminded of life’s magic by the path you’ve already blazed.” -Tut.com Notes From The Universe
“This isn’t a time to lose religion; there’s extra life ready so that you can expertise.” -Shakira Maria @moonomens on IG
I feel I’ll take a while to assume extra about what “beginning over” goes to appear like for me. From the place I’m now, I imply. I’ve improved so much during the last 9 months, however I’m nonetheless VERY unwell. I’m grateful to be shifting in the suitable course a minimum of, irrespective of how sluggish. 💝
I’m not even in a position to do one thing so simple as “go for a stroll” simply but, however hopefully (very) quickly!! I *am* again on my ft a minimum of, after months of bodily remedy.
Possibly I’ll begin over with a re-introduction and a little bit of catch-up. Whereas I’ve been quiet, I’ve been saving notes and concepts and ideas to share with you – for once I might.
Possibly I’ll simply begin again easy – with fundamental each day meals diaries, after which write extra on days I’m feeling up for it. Like at this time. 🙂 I say “at this time” however I’ve been making an attempt to jot down this since final Friday. 😅
I’m nonetheless unsure how that’s going to go. Getting out tomorrow might put me again out of fee for awhile once more, or I might do positive. I by no means know, which is irritating (and making life fairly difficult!), however these days I’ve solely been in a position to do about one factor a month or each few weeks. Earlier than that I used to be in a position to do small issues just a few instances per week, however I’m studying the phrases “relapse” and “pacing” – in all their depth, lol 🤦♀️ ugh!
I really feel caught. I’m unsure if I’m ever going to get “nicely” or if that is simply how life goes to be for me any more. I really feel torn between acceptance and pushing ahead, typically one is extra dangerous (or useful) than the opposite. I’m nonetheless holding out HOPE although, and am getting by means of all of this with the 2 issues that assist me probably the most: endurance and beauty.
Additionally, I deliberate a visit! 🙂 I’ll need to let you know extra about that as nicely. I miss touring, SO a lot. I did plan it out with plenty of pacing and relaxation time, however I actually wanted one thing FUN to do and sit up for, so I’m fairly enthusiastic about that.:)
I sit up for catching up, and listening to how issues are going with you. I do know lots of people have been by means of ups and downs or large modifications during the last two years.
I’d love to listen to what’s happening in your life these days!
I’m doing fairly okay, all issues thought-about. I by no means anticipated to get so sick. I definitely by no means anticipated to STAY so sick for therefore lengthy. However I’m nonetheless right here, I’m hanging in there, and I’m determining what “beginning over” means, or what that’s going to appear like…
Keep tuned. I really feel prefer it’s going to appear like a critical COMEBACK. 😉
I can hope a minimum of.:)
p.s. What do you are feeling such as you want most in your life proper now? – I take into consideration that so much, or a minimum of as soon as per week, once I go to my acupuncture appointment. This week I advised him I wanted vitality and motivation, that I really feel “caught”.
Some days, most days, I’m okay with that. I’m coping with this sickness the very best I can. However I’ve additionally seen a basic air of malaise in my social circles and enterprise connections these days – like social fatigue, lack of inspiration – one thing. I can’t fairly put my finger on it. And I’m not processing issues like regular with my neurological points ha, so I assumed I’d simply ask. 🙂